About the being a Vulcan thing: it was my absolute dream as a kid/teen - having no emotion = no vulnerability. I wasn't popular at school (understatement of the century). I tried to erase mine, it was a disaster, and I (kinda) grew up and 1/ realized that Vulcans do have emotions, at times devastating ones, and 2/ trying to pretend I didn't have emotions had been the cause for more difficulties than trying for normal. I'm still uncomfortable showing many emotions & feelings, or feel the need to overplay them so I can dismiss them as a jest.
This is a really fascinating poll :-) I wibbled over the answers a lot because I tend to think of 'mood' or 'Stimmung' as something inherently more stable, more like a trend line than individual measurements. That make sense? Anyway, so my mood doesn't change all that much even though my feelings go up and down (mostly down, says the gloominess *g*)
I would still want to be a Vulcan even though I fear that my interpretation of Vulcan control doesn't line up with canon 100% - to me being a classically trained Vulcan would mean being able to dampen my feelings in such a way that they don't impair my judgement or general usefulness if I chose to.
Ahem. I babbled a bit, didn't I. This is a topic that I think about a lot (yeah, the psychology student cliche).
On second thought, I wouldn't want to be a Vulcan.
Four words: pon farr.
I wouldn't mind the generally stronger emotions if I had the means to deal with them but I would mind if pon farr came with the package. Now, why did I not think of that earlier?! Thank god there wasn't a fairy present when I wrote that comment :~)
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Date: 2007-06-18 09:36 pm (UTC)I tried to erase mine, it was a disaster, and I (kinda) grew up and 1/ realized that Vulcans do have emotions, at times devastating ones, and 2/ trying to pretend I didn't have emotions had been the cause for more difficulties than trying for normal. I'm still uncomfortable showing many emotions & feelings, or feel the need to overplay them so I can dismiss them as a jest.
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Date: 2007-06-18 09:38 pm (UTC)Anyway, so my mood doesn't change all that much even though my feelings go up and down (mostly down, says the gloominess *g*)
I would still want to be a Vulcan even though I fear that my interpretation of Vulcan control doesn't line up with canon 100% - to me being a classically trained Vulcan would mean being able to dampen my feelings in such a way that they don't impair my judgement or general usefulness if I chose to.
Ahem. I babbled a bit, didn't I. This is a topic that I think about a lot (yeah, the psychology student cliche).
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Date: 2007-06-18 09:44 pm (UTC)Four words: pon farr.
I wouldn't mind the generally stronger emotions if I had the means to deal with them but I would mind if pon farr came with the package. Now, why did I not think of that earlier?! Thank god there wasn't a fairy present when I wrote that comment :~)